marie antoinette

"let them eat cake!" or, in his case, let them have their cake AND eat it too.

it would've have been so much easier had we not bumped into each other at starbucks yesterday. we'd have said our goodbyes and we would've moved on. instead, we're back in limbo.

if a friend were relaying my situation to me as their own, i would tell her to walk away and cut her losses. being alone is better than being in a relationship where the terms are being dictated by someone else, in the long run. is it scary that while i fully know that i should just walk away from this relationship now, i don't think i'm going to? that i can foresee great heartbreak in the not-so-distant future and yet it's not deterring me from continuing on my path of self-destruction?

i have never been someone who was able to delay immediate gratification for potentially greater gains in the future and it's no different in this situation. and i know that no matter how hard i try to make it all work, to the satisfaction of the both of us, it's not. i'm going to end up getting hurt in the end. and i'll only have myself to blame.

perhaps i need to think on this a little while longer. we are going to have coffee on saturday and continue our conversation from dinner tonight. it was a good conversation; probably one of the better ones we've had (not that there have been many to choose from).

here is how i see it: we should continue on the same route but with a little Elvis thrown in for spice. you know, "a little less conversation, a little more action, please." PLEASE!!!!! :)

to be continued....