off-hand

Sam off-handedly quoted my Gmail address to me on Saturday, and i'm quite certain i have never given it to him.  it's not that hard to figure out - people tend to use the same handle on every social medium if they can, and i'm no exception.  and, he's a smart guy and is good with computers so i'm not surprised he hasn't found more stuff about me, given my fairly prominent online presence.  not that i think he will find this blog and if he does, not that i think he'll read it and if he does, not that it matters because if i'm posting my thoughts and feelings on an online blog, i obviously don't mind if he reads it, but that's how things went sideways with the Architect years ago.  however, i don't think Sam is as headcasey as the Architect was, so i'm not too concerned that he'll freak out.  and if he does, well he shouldn't have been reading the blog then.

he also mentioned yesterday that he tended to make the same mistakes in relationships over and over again, and it's usually the reason why they end the way they do.  of course, i jumped on that but he wouldn't reveal what that mistake was.  naturally, i spent the rest of the day thinking about what it could possibly be.  and then i realized that, right now, i am in the midst of the same mistake i always make in relationships, so who am i to judge?

what's the definition of insane?  doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result?  lovers are lunatics indeed.