did he?

it occurred to me that, when Sam quoted my email address (you know, the one I didn't give him), it wasn't just a guess.

i mean, he knows my "usual" handle, and it's easy enough to attach it to a domain name.  but how can you guess which domain name - there are so many.  he doesn't use one that's typical, so maybe i wouldn't either.

oddly enough, the email address he quoted is the one i use for my fake account on the fishing website.  you know, the one he works at?  (enter the conspiracy theory) i know it's a long stretch, but maybe, just maybe, he searched me out at work and found my email address there and, without thinking (or maybe absolutely thinking), he blurted out what he shouldn't have known in the first place.  i digress.

after much upset on my part, including a gut-wrenching cry on Saturday morning, i decided that i was going to really give Sam a piece of my mind about him still being "active", and then i was going to suggest we take some time apart.  all that fell to the far reaches of my mind the minute he walked through the door and kissed me hello.  in fact, we had another wonderful weekend, and one that i didn't expect to have because it was his weekend with his son.  he brought me my favorite dessert from True Confections, we had dinner and then he took me on a surprise drive up Cypress, just to show me the city poking up through the fog.  he was on a bit of a time crunch the next morning, but we still were able to enjoy a leisurely morning and breakfast at a local spot we tried out last week.

i fricken hate uncertainty.  but given the stress i'm under with school and uncertainty with work duties, ending a relationship with someone i really like is not a good idea for me right now.  but six months is coming up fast, and that is my deadline.

until then, i've decided to stop checking his profile.....so often.  :)  check back with me in three weeks and see whether i feel the same way.