in touch

George suggested a lunch for all us girls for this past saturday. she had thrown out white rock, which i loved. i responded to the e-mail and said, "that's great! i was going to suggest lonsdale because of this artisan market that will be there, but white rock is good too!" and of course, everyone else said, "both sound good. doesn't matter to me." i was so ticked off, i purposefully didn't respond until saturday morning.

by then, the responses were all pointing towards lonsdale, so we all made our plans. George parked her car at my building and we walked to the skytrain together. we then took the seabus (which i've never taken) to the Quay. we did a bit of a wander whilst waiting for Doc Tardy and T to show up. once we were all together, we picked a restaurant for lunch and sat on the patio. we chatted and ate and chatted. then we wandered around the shops, ending up in a little jewelry store specializing in local, Canadian artists. we all ended up buying rings and T and George ended up buying earrings and necklaces to go with their rings. then we drove to park royal village and did a bit more shopping there. we ended the afternoon with a coffee and then Doc drove us to the skytrain. it was probably one of the best days i've spent in a really long time. and i almost didn't end up going because of how stubborn i am.

i think .... i know over the years, i've tended to turn inwards for everything because i haven't wanted to deal with the rejection from friends or potential dates or family. it's made me a colder person. i don't think i'm a cold person, but i now come across that way because of this fear of failure and rejection that i have. it's weird.

and even though i was at work today until 5:30, i did spend some time with Mon, just chatting but also building the bond we have started to form. it sounds a bit corny when i say it, but ultimately that's what is happening. i know she's looking for a new attachment now that A is gone, but that doesn't mean i'm second or a consolation prize. it just means she now has time to get to know me and vice-versa.

in a weird way, spending more time at work is fostering new friendships and strengthening existing ones. but it probably also means my work suffers a little too :)

speaking of work, the new guy started today. OMG, is he ever adorable! we called him hot new guy behind his back but now that i've gotten a good look at him, he is just so adorable, there's no way i can call him hot, or even be hot for him. the 7 year age difference probably helps keep my hormones in check too. seriously, he is so cute, i want to pinch his cheeks. and no, not those ones.