brevity

i was tired this morning. i didn't have a very good sleep, despite the fact that i went to bed fairly early. i kept waking up in the middle of the night, not wanting to open my eyes because i knew it wasn't time to get up, but at the same time wondering if i was wrong.

when the elevator door opened to our floor at work, i took one step out and saw the Mentor staring at me expectantly. i thought, "she couldn't possibly be rude enough to stalk me at the elevator like the lawyers do. who does she think she is?"

but she launched right into her spiel, "i have to do this response today and i don't know anything about this file. it's A's file and she's not here anymore and i don't know what to do..." blah, blah, blah. she followed me from the reception area to the kitchen, and then to my desk. i stared at her incredulously, but it was lost on her. i was so angry.

in fact, i was pissy all morning. everytime i heard that parrot-voice of hers (squawk, squawk), i cringed internally. i barely said a word to anyone.

then, i was angry at myself for letting her get to me. so i was in an even pissier mood. and then i remembered Lesson 3 of the 45 Life Lessons:

"life is too short to waste time hating anyone." so true. instead of letting myself wallow in my anger as i do, i did my best to shake it off. and i managed to do it before lunch. i think the mocha and chocolate chip banana bread helped. i suppose it's also not helpful that i'm PMSing. well, whatever works, yeh?