competition

i'm very competitive. and i'm also fairly realistic. does the combination of the two make for a go-getter? no, not in my case.

i hate to lament once more and for the umpteenth time about online dating, but i really don't know why i continue to subject myself to it. i enjoy the variety that is offered but as i said before, i tend to stick with the same thing. it's like when i go to certain restaurants - i always look at the menu, and always consider my options but in the end, i always get my usual. i'm a girl that likes having options. lots and lots of options. i'd be one of those celebrities with the yard-long list of food demands in my dressing room, but only ended up nibbling on the M&Ms. (actually, who am i kidding - when it comes to a buffet of food, i'll one of everything).

anyhoo, i'm once again feeling like a competitor, and i don't like that feeling. i know that's just the way it is when you're trying to meet someone, but honestly, the online experience heightens that feeling. it's probably because the talent pool is much larger because the arms of the web extend far past the reaches of downtown or my neighbourhood. i'm meeting people that i never would have met had it not been for online dating and once again, i think that perhaps there was a reason for that

meeting JW tomorrow. you wonder why i'm feeling bleh about it.