happy, new year?

went to an open house/housewarming at a friend's house on the 30th. i was hoping i would catch Dutch there. he's my friend's husband's best friend. we met at a bowling event the girls put together with the hubbies about three years ago and Jen had decided to invite some of her hubby's single guy friends. Dutch was the one i was interested in but he was only lukewarm to me. i never pursued it. but i'd end up seeing him or bumping into him in the weirdest places that didn't have any relation to my friendship with Jen. dragonboat races. beer festivals. at the mall. walking down the street at work. and he never remembers where he knows me from. he knows i look familiar. he knows he knows me from somewhere. but he can never place me. last year at their Christmas party, i was chatting with him at the buffet table (where else would i be?) and he asked me where i ended up after practicum. i told him the cross-streets where i worked and he said, "which building?" as fate would have it, he works in the building right next door to mine. no wonder i see him wandering around ever now and then.

anyway, this time around, it was getting to the point in the evening when i didn't think i'd see him at all. i had been there mingling for about an hour and a half when the people that i knew finally came. and i didn't even see when he came in but he did. i was standing with Tiger at the buffet table (where else would i be?) and up walks Tiger's hubby and Dutch. Tiger introduces herself and then Dutch looks at me and says, "and i think we've met but i'm sorry, i don't remember your name..." so i told him and he said, "of course, at bowling right?" Tiger pipes in, "we haven't gone bowling in a long time! we should go again soon." and Dutch heartily agrees. we stood there and made small talk for a bit and then he got called away. over the course of the rest of the night, we exchanged some fleeting glances but that was about it for interaction. there was one instance where someone asked me if i wanted a drink and Dutch made a comment about me needing some tequila but it fell on deaf ears (except i heard it). when he left, he remembered my name and said, "i'm sure i'll see you again soon." he has a girlfriend.

i had some of my single girlfriends over for new years last night, including one home from NY for the holidays. it was nice. my apartment is so clutter-free right now, i'm thinking of having people over every weekend, just so it stays that way. it's so nice to see the floor in my den again! my dining set is here now and i put it together by myself on friday morning. it looks really nice and it pits the space ferfectly. :)

anyway, new years was low-key, which i was hoping for. i had some appies and some champagne. we sat around and talked for awhile and then we watched "little miss sunshine" (which i had seen about a week or so ago but i loved steve carrell in this movie so i willingly watched it again. plus the end scene was worth it!) and then finished the movie in time for us to watch a bit of Dick Clark's Rockin' Eve 2007 and then toast in the new year. which brings me to my post du jour.

it doesn't feel like a new year. i didn't even bother with my tradition of writing my top ten resolutions after midnight. they're the same every year anyway (at least, the first four or five usually are). i think i'm just feeling off. not even blah because i'm not sad or depressed. i'm tired. i'm not bored. i'm listless. i've been away from work for 10 days and i haven't missed it once (normally i'm longing to go back after day 5). i don't want to go to work tomorrow. i want to stay home and sit on the couch and watch DVDs all day. it sounds like depression but it doesn't feel like it. i'm not sad. it's weird. i don't know what i am.

holy crap, my apartment is so tidy right now!!!