i did it!

i finally spoke to my administrator about my job and who i worked with and my unhappiness with the whole situation. i emphasized to her that i was unsure how to proceed as there were several parties involved and several different ways i could approach the situation. she was very understanding and very encouraging. she emphasized that she wanted to be able to come up with a solution from within the firm (i.e. she didn't want me to leave). she also told me that many people, lawyers and support staff, enjoy working with me and she was sure that the firm in general would be upset if i were to leave.... that was good for the ego and it made me feel like i had made the right decision to talk to her instead of just putting up with stuff and then finally losing it one random day.

i did manage to drop in two things: 1) that my problems with the Mentor were there from the very beginning; 2) i had been considering looking elsewhere (although i didn't let on that i had been at an interview in the recent past).

i don't want to leave. i want to have a place where i've worked for more than 4 years. i like the people i work with, if only on a social level with some.

speaking of which, i think i'm done with my OC. i know i've said that before but he's just been so distant lately (but friendly with everyone else) that there is no motivation for me to continue. it makes me sad. but life goes on.

i really, really, really, really, really, really, reeeeaaaaalllly want a dog.