zut alors!

i don't mean this to sound conceited but i think i may be too photogenic. like, i think i look really good in photos, but then when people meet me in person, they're disappointed that i don't look the same as my picture.

i met an online date for coffee yesterday. Nico and i met and started exchanging e-mails only a couple of weeks ago but it seemed like the right time to meet. we had exchanged some really good e-mails - not just the "what's your favorite song" type of e-mails but ones where actual conversations and exchanges were taking place. he came across as very real, with no hint of arrogance or pompousness. and i'm not saying i expected either just because he's from France.

when i got to the coffee shop, i saw him in the window. i was almost certain it was him. i walked in the door and stood five feet from where he was sitting. i stood there and scanned the room, giving him enough time to see me, ensure it was probably me, and then by the time my eyes reached his, he would smile and i would walk over and say, "bonjour!"

as my eyes reached where he sat, i realized he was not looking at me. he was looking in the other direction. he didn't realize it was me. he was expecting someone better looking.

i managed to make my way over to him and say hello and he returned my hello and we sat and chatted for about an hour. when it was time to part ways, he said, "i would hug you but i don't want to get you sick," because he was still battling the cold he had caught over Christmas. pas de probleme!

except when i ran through the whole evening in my head this morning, it played more like, "get me out of here" than "get me home so i can rest and see this wonderful angel of a woman again soon." i don't even remember him suggesting that we should meet again. sigh.

against my better judgment (head, not heart), i sent him the Follow-Up Note (ironically acronymed as "FUN") this morning, just wishing him a speedy recovery and expressing that if he wanted to get together again, i would like to see him.

will he respond? je ne sais pas. do i want him to? OUI! he was so nice and seemed so kind. i don't even want to date him, necessarily, but someone like him would be a nice friend to spend time with every now and then. but how do you say that without sounding like you're expecting anything else? bah.

c'est la vie.