ol' blue eyes

my Office Crush is so cute. he wore a shirt that i really like today. i'm sure i've told him i liked him in it but i should've said it again today. he got a delivery today while i was covering for our receptionist's break so i decided i would take it to him on my way back to my desk. our receptionist said i was going to make his day because he'd been looking forward to this package for awhile. i knocked at his door and, sure enough, the minute his eyes saw the package, his eyes lit up and this huge grin spread across his face. it was like a kid at Christmas, the way he dove into it. and, i've discovered we have another thing in common (aside from thinking that life should be like a movie musical): old, used books. he told me about this website he orders used books from and i e-mailed him later and asked him what the website address was. at the end of the day (i worked late again), he came by the printer at my desk to pick up something he printed, started off back to his desk then came back and said, "so, you like old books?" i told him i collected old poetry books. he asked me which poets and i said, "keats, tennyson, yeats, wordsworth...the romantic lot." and he smiled and nodded appreciatively. then he asked if everything with my condo purchase was sorted out and i said yes and told him that i'd be sending out invitations for my moving party soon so if anyone had an SUV or a pickup truck... he said, "i have a pickup truck!" and i said, "well, then i'll be needing you soon." and he said, "i might be selling it." and i laughed.

he's so cute. i stopped by his office on my way out, not hoping for anything but i thought i'd ask him what he had planned for the weekend. reading the book and painting his apartment were on the agenda. i wasn't going to ask him out so i didn't but i wish i had just put it out there. then again, how smart would that have been since he hasn't really expressed too much interest, other than a passing interest.

on a slightly different note, the other day, i was cleaning out some of my desk drawers at home. i keep all of my "goodbye" cards from where i've worked in the past and i read the one i got when i left CWS. i was trying to decipher different handwriting and trying to picture what this person or that person looked like. and then, at the bottom of the card, in the corner, i read a sentiment that literally jolted my heart. i hadn't thought of him in a long time in the context of our relationship but i had thought of him recently. but seeing his handwriting and what he had to say about me leaving and the future and his name.... it was amazing the physical response, albeit split-second, those three lines of text caused. i haven't seen him in 8 years - can you believe that? not that i expected to bump into him but i guess i'm just not meant to. just like i haven't bumped into my ex, even though i've bumped into his friends on social occasions. weird the way life works, eh?