numb

i'm not feeling much about anything lately. work's ok, although i'm still determined to leave after my 6-month stint (and since i think i'm going to get yelled at on thursday, i'd like to leave as of today!). love life is non-existent but i'm feeling fine about that. family life is still a bit rocky, although it shouldn't be anymore but it's better than it was a week ago. no, nothing's going on in my life right now. perhaps that's why i'm feeling a bit down. i worked three 12-hour days last week so perhaps i'm still tired. i spent all of sunday reading the new harry potter book so perhaps that relaxed feeling has carried into the week. i don't know what it is. i feel blah today. did i feel like that yesterday? have i felt like that all this week? hard to tell. i had a grand time on saturday night. i went to my grandma's house for her birthday party and i was laughing it up with some of my cousins, which is not something i get to do often anymore. but did i feel blah that day too? i'm no longer aware of how i feel day-to-day...bad sign. :) i need to get back to the gym or some regular form of physical activity - perhaps that will give me the pick-me-up i need.

i wish it was october 28th.