new opportunity

so i didn't end up getting yelled at by the VP. she was definitely cranky because she was sick but her sister had also come with me to work with her on an agreement and i was left to my own devices. dodged that bullet. but i've decided that for the remainder of my time at my job, i'm going to need to care more. this is my problem: i don't care about my work. it's unusual for me because my reputation at work is everything, particularly in such a small community as the legal one. but since i work with people who aren't in the private sector, my reputation doesn't mean as much as if i were working at an actual law firm. but i need to care - i'm ashamed of some of the work i've been producing and that's no good. i'm turning over the new leaf, three months after the fact.

speaking of new leaf, a friend of mine at my old work e-mailed me a secondment opportunity that she thought i'd be interested in. i have a feeling she has much more confidence in my abilities than i do, judging by the job requirement sheet that was attached to her forwarded e-mail. initially, i briefly glanced over the "Core Competencies" section of the requirements sheet and was immediately intimidated - i didn't feel like i possessed anything they were looking for. i had some of the "Additonal Qualifications" but i figured if i couldn't hack the "Core" then I might as well not even try.

she sent it to me earlier this week and it was only yesterday that i decided i would take a good look at it. while i'm still not sure exactly what the position entails nor what this particular facet of the organization does (much like when i started with the Crown), the idea sounds interesting. i don't think it would involve anything particularly "legal" in nature, which is a bit of a turn-off, but it's only a one-year secondment and it could prove to be a very eye-opening experience. i've decided that, despite the fact that i don't feel i'm at all qualified for it, i'm going to apply for the position. after all, you can't get something you don't try for, right? the only downside is that the position is at headquarters in victoria. i guess it doesn't really matter as it seems that all of my friends are moving away for work and school or they live elsewhere anyway. i guess i figured that if i was going to move somewhere to work, that i'd go big - across the country, to the states or to another continent. not just across the pond :) but that's me counting the proverbial chickens - and my chickens get counting more than most people's, i think.