under pressure

i feel compelled to write because my last entry was about reconnecting with MM. he conveniently forgot to call/email me last week about getting together for coffee and methinks he will forget again or be too busy to call/email this week too. and we all know why: he's scared. he's just started a relationship with someone new and then i come from out of the blue - ever the temptress, luring him once again to betray sacred trysts...er, trusts. he obviously doesn't trust himself around me and so he's avoiding the temptation all together. at least, that's what i like to think he's doing, anyway. he's probably just being a jerk :)

going to a spring social this friday called "devil's advocate". it's being put on by the VBA so a bunch of lawyers i know are going (including MGF and KD). i know A and Mon are going and i understand that the OC may come if BabyMan goes. i hope it's fun. it's supposed to be a social for lawyers and their in-the-business guests but who knows? anyway, it's at the art gallery so at least i'll be able to see the new exhibit and see MGF to boot. he's always very inclusive - i get the feeling that A and Mon will be very sticktogether but KD will be there too and she won't abandon me!

speaking of my OC, he and Shorty came out to Cardero's last thursday to watch the Nucks get spanked in OT and tank their series (perennial losers). it was me, A and Mon, A's friend and Mon's two guy friends (one very cute and shy - the one they were talking about setting me up with... but he wasn't interested at all. think about that night when i just wanted to say hi to that guy at the 'Fly and that's about how interested he was. Yeah.). anyway, the OC was very cute. managed to avoid talking directly with me, although he gave me a couple of Hi-5s (who does that?) and got a little pissy when Shorty booted him from his spot on the couch beside me so he could sit with me. i think Shorty's interested in me. i don't know how i feel about that. i won't bother getting into it because it's pure speculation (and i don't ever do that, right?).

i'm feeling very lazy this evening and i was contemplating not going to my aerobics class tonight - we are doing hip hop so i won't be missing much. but, i am a lazy slug so i need to get out and do something. besides, i had nachos and ice-cream for dinner, specifically because i knew i would be burning extra calories tonight. therefore, i must to go.

i am skipping out on a special, money-grabbing strata meeting tonight. i figure i don't really care if they pass all five resolutions. only one is a biggie at $550.00 and the rest are under $150. i know, they add up but i can't imagine every resolution will be passed. the owners here are too cheap (remember, they wouldn't even pass the resolution for security upgrades!). ownership is not what it's cracked up to be.

i have holidays coming up in two weeks! very excited. i wanted to do an all-inclusive - nay, i was going to do an all-inclusive (even by myself) but i realized that, because of my "condition", it wasn't a good week to go. i would have no fun. so, then i realized i had holidays in the first week of july but that's not a good time to go to tropical countries. so now, i'm trying to decide what to do. my may holidays, i figure i'll just do the tourist-in-my-own-town thing and see stuff that i haven't been to see in years (like the aquarium!). maybe go down to the states for a few days and shop or relax. i hope it's nice that week. then i can stay in town and frequent different beaches around the mainland, read books and then come home and sleep in my own bed. tres cheap! then maybe i can finally pay off my credit card and buy a new computer. i haven't been able to mess around with myPod playlists in months!

A bientot (i wish i had the french letters so i could spell these french words with the proper accents!)