can't win for losing

so i'm back in touch with MMM. except, he's only MM now. thank you, facebook! initially, when he e-mailed a response to me, his stats listed him as "single" and he was looking for just about anything. two days later, he listed himself as "in a relationship" and only looking for friendship.

i can't say i wasn't disappointed. let's face it - i've thought about him, on and off, for the better part of 10 years. now, i've been seemingly given a second chance but it's quickly snatched from me. oh well.

people are popping up and adding me on facebook that i never thought i'd hear from. still no really good surprises (aside from MM) but it's fun.

feeling a bit under the weather today but will go to my aerobics class tonight - it's disco fever! i think this is the best way for me to exercise - every week, we do a different dance so every week, i am kept wondering about what the new moves are going to be. keep it fresh, you know?

i went to a fundraising dinner on friday night for HOPE International. i participated in the silent auction (although half of the items were made in the Philippines and all i could think was, "i could probably buy that for $10) and i watched the video that was designed to tug at your heartstrings and pocketbooks. by the end, i had rekindled my desire to adopt from overseas, probably from the Philippines. my only concern would be that, if i were to adopt a child from the Philippines, would i end up turning them into a "coconut" like me (you know, brown on the outside, white on the inside)? i suppose my parents and the rest of the family could assist in keeping the kid's language skills in tact (i would single-handedly destroy that!). i would have to move to a bigger place. but beyond that, i think it is definitely back in my mind as the thing to do when i'm 35. four short years away. maybe 40. :)