Top o' the morning to you!

[All respond] And the rest of the day to you!

Happy St. Patrick's Day! that's it - that's all i'm doing for St. Paddy's day. :)

i did the right thing last night. i had some time to sleep, think it over. i didn't have any dreams about him last night. i thought about the whole thing this morning and approaching him yesterday wouldn't have done anything for me. if anything, it would have brought me more angst. sometimes, you need to get other people's opinions to find out what you really want to do. everyone i asked said i should say hi but i kept asking for opinions, hoping that someone would say, "why? what would it do for you - who you are - today?"

i just finished watching the academy-award winning documentary, "Born into Brothels". when it came out in the theatres initially, i really wanted to see it but never ended up doing so. not surprising since i hardly ever go to movies unless someone has asked me to go. i'm kind of glad i didn't go to see it in the theatre. maybe it's just this time of the month but it made me tear up more than once. it was so good.

the kids in this film were given cameras and basically documented their lives through still photos. many of the pictures were quite good and a few were amazing, considering that they were taking pictures with automatic cameras (oh, and that the photographers were under 12 years old). there were auctions selling the pictures and books and calendars and all of the money went to funding each child's education. they now have a chance at a decent life.

i think i cried because you know that there are more than just these eight children in india that are living in these kinds of conditions. there are millions of children in the world that will never receive the kind of help that these kids did and you begin to feel quite helpless. a monetary donation here and there will help but it won't greatly change their standards of living. i think that's the great philosophical and moral question: if a person doesn't know what they are missing, do you still help them? where do you begin?