sentimentality v. logic

i've been offered a job at a downtown law firm for more money and excellent long-term potential. and they want me now. they're willing to wait the two weeks i'm contractually obligated to give in order to leave my current job. so what's the problem?

i'm soft; a sucker; a spineless jellyfish. despite the fact that i don't feel anymore loyalty than is required to fulfill any confidentiality provisions of my contract towards the company, i still feel like i'm leaving them in the lurch. i'm going to miss everyone i work with, despite the fact that, on my bad days (which is more often than not), most of them drive me nuts. i like the idea of working for an up-and-coming, multi-national. i like the perks that go along with it. i like the fact that the agreements that i help draft are going before heads of other big companies for their signature - something i worked on! i hate that i'll be leaving my position before i ever imagined i would. that it feels like i'm giving up - throwing in the proverbial towel. i hate that i think that they'll think i'm unprofessional if i leave before my contract is up, despite the fact that lots of professionals jump ship in order to further their professional development. i hate that i know what i have to do but i don't want to do it because it would be easier (on the one hand) to just continue to be a throw rug for these people. i hate that i know i'm going to ask every single person that crosses my path what i should do, despite the fact that the right thing to do is blazingly obvious to me. i hate that i think this much!!!

it's not easy being green - my head hurts.