baby did a bad, bad thing

okay, so i peeked. we're doing a huge computer system overhaul at work and when i left yesterday, i had to turn off the Ninja's computer because all computers had to be off for macro updates and what not. and i peeked. and i found out that it's not Mon, but it is someone. someone i haven't met but i've heard about. someone i actually had suspicions about but thought, "no, she's, like, 23!" and i was right. so when i searched the system to read over the reference letter he wrote for her (that i typed) and her draft cover letters and CVs, i came across a document that was probably marked "confidential" before the conversion but is now available to the whole system - a list of everyone's computer passwords. and what's his password? her first name. how sophomoric can you get???

OY! what is he doing??? what is he thinking??? she's young enough to be his daughter. i think what bothers me most is that he's continuing to cheat on his wife. it's not that Sam was the love of his life and that he had to be with her - i mean, maybe she is but i now very much doubt it. i've actually lost some respect for him - a lot of respect. i think i idealized him when Sam told me of their relationship and now i know that he's just in it for the tail. Twenty-three?

the worst part is that the knowledge of this, that it's this 23 year old masters student in ontario is doing my boss, has lifted the great weight off my mind. when i read it, i wanted to run into Mon's office and hug her. maybe he's sleeping with her too but i don't think so. i think she's as in the dark about it as i was. let's face it - this chick is on her facebook! he introduced them. my suspicions began when Mon said about her, "the Ninja's trying to convince her to stay a couple more days." wha?

when i e-mailed Io about the whistler weekend, she chastized me about three single girls hanging out with a group of married men in their 40s by saying, "the Ninja's a great guy but he's married! you're not going to get very far with him!" i wanted to write back, "that is where you're wrong."

i also just found out that his car got broken into in february and, among other things that were stolen? his wedding band. oy.

i hope his kids turn out normal because that's who he's really cheating on.

if i'm so hot, why am i still single?

many months ago, i read an article in the paper about a guy (maybe a local guy, maybe not) who set up a website called "HotEnough.org". his premise for setting up the site was that hot people should be with other hot people and that other online dating sites didn't offer hot enough people for the hot-elite. he says he set up the site slightly tongue-in-cheek but at the same time, if it took off, so be it. being curious, i went online to check it out. what a process. you had to post pictures (including full-body [clothed] shots so they can see what body type you are) and the existing members vote on whether or not you are hot enough to be a member on the site. i used one of my web-based e-mail address to submit my profile and submitted my pictures. I then promptly forgot all about it. this was months ago.

a couple of weeks ago, i decided to check this particular webmail address after not having checked it in a few weeks. lo and behold, there was an e-mail from HotEnough.org - i had been deemed hot enough by the voting members and was now a part of the site. i laughed and laughed. i'm only a 7 to them - the low-end of hot - but i was still "HotEnough". hahaha!

i did do a search to see what kind of guys are on there and yes, they are all hot. every single one of them. hot. H.O.T. but i haven't tried to contact anyone. come on.

went to Whistler after work on friday with Mon and A to celebrate my birthday. it was actually fun - i wasn't sure how it was going to be. then again, we did meet up with the Ninja and his golfing buddies so that was fun, particularly since they paid for our dinners at the Brew House. i still have my suspicions about Mon and the Ninja, but when i'm thinking rationally, i know it's not really on his part. i'm 65% sure of that :) i love Whistler in the summer - is so beautiful up there and the atmosphere is just so chill. although the temperature was also very chill - there was a brief snow shower in the village yesterday morning when Mon took the dogs out for a walk. isn't it summer yet? we're planning on doing another girls trip up (but Mon invited the Ninja, of course).

i think their relationship bothers me because, ironically, i feel like he's cheating on Sam, even though they're not together anymore and, let's face it, he's still married on paper. i always thought so much more of him and even when i found out he and Sam had been in a relationship for five years (!), the only thing that made me think ill about him was that he strung her along for five years, claiming his children were the ones that were holding him back. really, he spends half his week sleeping in a rented hotel room in vancouver. i know how important his kids are to him and how much he loves them. but doesn't it hurt them more when he's only around every so often? i don't know. some people have weird notions of what is hurtful and what wouldn't be. i think he's delusional, really. i don't think he and Sam will every get back together and it bothers me because they should be together. he shouldn't be getting drunk with Mon every monday night after work and then feeling guilty about it on tuesday (Mon's words, not mine). i actually asked her, "what do you guys do together that you would feel guilty?" she told me that their intention is just to go and have dinner and then go for a drink (one drink) at Cardero's but they always end up getting smashed and then stumbling home (to her home? don't know but she does live two blocks from Cardero's and his hotel is closer to PacCentre. i wonder). anyway, when i really think about it, do i really want Sam to be with him? is he going to change for her? maybe. but if he's just going to be this way, then i want him to stay away from Sam and that's that.

okay, time for this birthday girl to clean - what a mess i left before i went to work on friday!

quickie

i have to type quick, before my computer decides to randomly shut off.

nothing new. thinking about having a cake party this saturday but it's getting kind of late to invite people. have finally gone back to the gym. man, am i out of shape. have booked a b&b for my august holidays. i hope it doesn't suck. this particular one is on acreage so suits people that have horses and want to ride trails. but, it's cheaper than the other ones i looked into and let's face it - it's available for all four of the days i wanted which coincidentally falls over the ironman/peachfest/august long weekend. that's a freaking miracle.

nothing new on the guy front but that's not new. although i still can't understand why people won't accept that i'm happily single. the married ladies at my work are either giving me ideas on how to meet guys or chastising me for being too "picky". as i told the last one that said that to me (which shut her up rather quickly), "i'm allowed to be picky if i'm not looking."

birthday this week. sigh. it's really starting to sink in that i'm not going to be young forever. and it's a weird feeling.

i need to start saving again. again, not new. i think it might be more efficient to just start recycling entries and just change the date. :)