admittedly, i do tape the oprah show every day, mostly so i don't miss out on any celebrity interviews or favorite show episodes. but i find her hard to watch.
don't get me wrong - i realize that her influence on mainstream culture is undeniable. who can be down on her for encouraging millions of people to read books that don't have fabio-esque men on the cover? or her establishing a school for girls in south africa and giving them a chance at success? she's an icon.
but she can't interview. and she's so self-centered, it's not even amusing anymore. i was just watching today's episode. her first guest was hill harper, an actor, who was on the show to talk about his book about mentoring young black men who don't have role-models of their own. he graduated magna cum laude from Brown University and then went on to receive his Masters in Law from Harvard - pretty academically accomplished, i'd say. he began to tell oprah about how he couldn't understand why celebrity role-models wouldn't acknowledge their educational backgrounds. he gave puff daddy/p. diddy/sean combs as an example and wondered out loud why puffy never talked about his degree from Howard University (probably why he's such a good businessman, assuming his degree was in business!). Instead of piping up about puffy's education (which I had no idea about!), oprah says, "Howard University - that's where i just received my doctorate from last week!" yawn. i turned it off after he was done talking.
she should go back to doing solely puff pieces because anyone who goes on her show to talk about anything of substance should expect to have their fifteen minute bit contain 13 minutes of oprah just talking about herself. i'd be insulted.
i may just be pissy because i had another incident with the Mentor. i had drafted something for the Ninja and he came out to give it back to me and said, "okay, if this is the language in the template, then we'll go with this." i said, "well, we didn't actually have a precedent on the system so i just did a search in the system and only found one example." the Mentor happened to be standing right there at the printer so she leans over and reads it, makes a face and says, "pthbbbt! yuck! i don't like that wording at all. it's no good. you obviously didn't look at any of my examples." as she walks towards her office to find me some "good" wording, i said to her, "well, i guess it wasn't named properly because i didn't find it and i searched extensively." the Ninja said that if she had an example ... he left it at that. i walked away to vent. i was livid. and i can hear her shrieking from her office, "ok, i found it! are you ready to take this down???" i didn't answer. she comes out of her office, sees me hanging out of someone's office (this is after hours - i was not on the clock) and turns to the Ninja and shrieks, "well, typically ungrateful! asks me for help and then takes off!" do you know how hard it was for me not to turn my head towards her and tell her to FUCK OFF?
i walked to reception to bitch and she followed me. annoyed, she said, "well, do you want to ask me about it tomorrow then?" i figured i would just bite it and listen. she dictated over my shoulder and that was it. the Mentor then left for the day and i marched right into my administrator's office, tearing out my hair. she took one look at me and said, "close the door. what did she do now?"
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. why can't the Mentor leave the firm or at least, just leave me alone???
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Monday, May 21, 2007
i can't get no
perhaps it's just hormones, but i honestly don't think i'll be satisfied with my professional life until i get a post-graduate degree. my only problem is that i don't know what to get it in.
i did my undergrad degree in english, but that was a fluke. at the start of my third year, when they sent around the letter saying that i had to declare a major, i took one look at my transcript to date, saw that i had taken a number of english classes already, and declared myself an english major. not exactly passion.
i have a great interest in psychology and sociology but where is a masters in sociology going to get me?
i've been researching MBAs and it seems to be a good choice if i want to continue in the business aspect of law or take over the paralegal program, like i've always threatened. but it's a bit dry.
i thought about doing a masters in journalism, like the Howler, but i'm not interested in being a journalist full-time.
that leaves me with the one thing i actually am passionate about - law. and the next logical step is law school. and it's the one step i really don't want to take, but i'm not quite sure why.
more soul-searching is required to determine what my motivation is in obtaining a post-graduate degree. is it like my desire to have a dog? i talk about it and dream about it all the time but it's something i won't ever do because i don't want it enough to take on the responsibility? sounds like me.
i'm hooped.
i did my undergrad degree in english, but that was a fluke. at the start of my third year, when they sent around the letter saying that i had to declare a major, i took one look at my transcript to date, saw that i had taken a number of english classes already, and declared myself an english major. not exactly passion.
i have a great interest in psychology and sociology but where is a masters in sociology going to get me?
i've been researching MBAs and it seems to be a good choice if i want to continue in the business aspect of law or take over the paralegal program, like i've always threatened. but it's a bit dry.
i thought about doing a masters in journalism, like the Howler, but i'm not interested in being a journalist full-time.
that leaves me with the one thing i actually am passionate about - law. and the next logical step is law school. and it's the one step i really don't want to take, but i'm not quite sure why.
more soul-searching is required to determine what my motivation is in obtaining a post-graduate degree. is it like my desire to have a dog? i talk about it and dream about it all the time but it's something i won't ever do because i don't want it enough to take on the responsibility? sounds like me.
i'm hooped.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
oh, my stomach!
i don't know why i try to drink. i know what happens, within hours, and yet sometimes, i still think things will be different. it wasn't.
i went to the devil's advocate social last night. it was fun. i went to KD's place first where she made me a mini-martini (since i don't drink) and we marvelled at the new colours of her place since she and her ex broke up. they're much nicer colors and the place looks way less cluttered. but i guess 650 square feet is pretty small for two people to not clutter it up a bit. anyway... we took a cab to the art gallery and began our evening. first person i saw was MGF (he didn't see me) and i saw him holding a girl's hand - he had brought his girlfriend. hmm. at that point, i almost didn't want to say hi to him, just so i could avoid meeting her. i still don't know why.
once we got settled in, KD began bumping into people she knew and we would stop and chat. i texted A and Mon and they were still at Mon's getting ready. so much for 7pm start time - it was just after 8. they didn't end up getting there until 9:30. and i thought i was bad.
i did end up bumping into MGF and he gave me a half-assed hug (he's the only one i'll allow to do that) and introduced me to his girlfriend. it was almost like being in a movie or a TV show. he hugged me, and as we parted she started to slowly walk towards me. she was looking up at me with up-cast eyes (i was almost 5'11 in my heels - my $15.00 nine west wonders!) and held out her hand. i couldn't believe what i saw. i could hear MGF saying to me, "this is..." almost simultaneously with her saying to me, "didn't we go to high school together?" MGF is dating a girl i went to high school with. i was shocked.
i was shocked on a number of levels. first, i thought he was dating a chinese girl so you'll imagine my surprise when this little jamaican girl, with her naturally grey eyes, holds out her hand to me. second, we went to high school together! third, i've seen this girl's semi-nude modelling pictures...i've commented to him on her rock of an ass. and now i find out we went to high school together. it's almost incestuous. i shudder. shudder! finally, he and i have discussed in detail their sex life. and here is this girl that i went to high school with. ugh!
then, when KD and her friend come up to us, i begin to introduce her to MGF, only to find out that MGF and KD went to first year law school together. he teased her about her following him to his dorm room one night. she said something else about something to do with sex. at this point, i'm so over-stimulated with this less than six-degree news that i'm not even really hearing what they're saying. but what i'm not hearing is bothering me too.
it was weird. i avoided spending any time with MGF and his girlfriend afterwards, until he caught me limping along later on in the night (despite the fact that my shoes are hot, they are hell to stand in for too long), he waved me over with this look of concern and offered me his seat. then, we started to chat. he and i joked around as we always do and i tried hard to include his girlfriend in conversation. she's either really shy or just young because she didn't talk much. they ended up leaving a few minutes after that because her knee was hurting (she fell last week when they were rollerblading). he gave me another hug, tighter this time, told me to call him and i went on my way. weird. i'll now have to ask him about KD. i don't want to know if they ever slept together because if they did, that's it for me and him as a future backup couple.
i met one guy that i thought was cuuuuute and he stood in our circle at one point but then walked off. too bad. i smiled and waved at him as he walked away. i tried.
by about 11:30, i was getting really sick to my stomach. i already had the migraine and the alcohol was sitting right at the bottom of my stomach, really wanting to come back up. i complained to A that i wanted to go home. she took off at about midnight and i was jealous. i managed to drag KD and her friend out of there by the time the house lights came up at just after 1 am. i was in no shape to do anything, let alone drive home, but i did. we stopped for pizza on granville (none for me, thanks) and i finally got into my car at about 1:30. i was not intoxicated but i was in no shape to drive home. i was ill, i had a headache, i was tired. but i wasn't going to suffer on KD's couch. if i was going to suffer, it would be in my own bed!
i managed to get myself home safely. as i walked in the door, i contemplated whether i should just make myself puke or whether i should just sleep it off. i chose the latter. i hate throwing up!
as usual, i woke up just fine this morning - tired, but not at all sick. i'm never drinking again, at least not hard liquor. a beer, maybe, but that's it.
i went to the devil's advocate social last night. it was fun. i went to KD's place first where she made me a mini-martini (since i don't drink) and we marvelled at the new colours of her place since she and her ex broke up. they're much nicer colors and the place looks way less cluttered. but i guess 650 square feet is pretty small for two people to not clutter it up a bit. anyway... we took a cab to the art gallery and began our evening. first person i saw was MGF (he didn't see me) and i saw him holding a girl's hand - he had brought his girlfriend. hmm. at that point, i almost didn't want to say hi to him, just so i could avoid meeting her. i still don't know why.
once we got settled in, KD began bumping into people she knew and we would stop and chat. i texted A and Mon and they were still at Mon's getting ready. so much for 7pm start time - it was just after 8. they didn't end up getting there until 9:30. and i thought i was bad.
i did end up bumping into MGF and he gave me a half-assed hug (he's the only one i'll allow to do that) and introduced me to his girlfriend. it was almost like being in a movie or a TV show. he hugged me, and as we parted she started to slowly walk towards me. she was looking up at me with up-cast eyes (i was almost 5'11 in my heels - my $15.00 nine west wonders!) and held out her hand. i couldn't believe what i saw. i could hear MGF saying to me, "this is..." almost simultaneously with her saying to me, "didn't we go to high school together?" MGF is dating a girl i went to high school with. i was shocked.
i was shocked on a number of levels. first, i thought he was dating a chinese girl so you'll imagine my surprise when this little jamaican girl, with her naturally grey eyes, holds out her hand to me. second, we went to high school together! third, i've seen this girl's semi-nude modelling pictures...i've commented to him on her rock of an ass. and now i find out we went to high school together. it's almost incestuous. i shudder. shudder! finally, he and i have discussed in detail their sex life. and here is this girl that i went to high school with. ugh!
then, when KD and her friend come up to us, i begin to introduce her to MGF, only to find out that MGF and KD went to first year law school together. he teased her about her following him to his dorm room one night. she said something else about something to do with sex. at this point, i'm so over-stimulated with this less than six-degree news that i'm not even really hearing what they're saying. but what i'm not hearing is bothering me too.
it was weird. i avoided spending any time with MGF and his girlfriend afterwards, until he caught me limping along later on in the night (despite the fact that my shoes are hot, they are hell to stand in for too long), he waved me over with this look of concern and offered me his seat. then, we started to chat. he and i joked around as we always do and i tried hard to include his girlfriend in conversation. she's either really shy or just young because she didn't talk much. they ended up leaving a few minutes after that because her knee was hurting (she fell last week when they were rollerblading). he gave me another hug, tighter this time, told me to call him and i went on my way. weird. i'll now have to ask him about KD. i don't want to know if they ever slept together because if they did, that's it for me and him as a future backup couple.
i met one guy that i thought was cuuuuute and he stood in our circle at one point but then walked off. too bad. i smiled and waved at him as he walked away. i tried.
by about 11:30, i was getting really sick to my stomach. i already had the migraine and the alcohol was sitting right at the bottom of my stomach, really wanting to come back up. i complained to A that i wanted to go home. she took off at about midnight and i was jealous. i managed to drag KD and her friend out of there by the time the house lights came up at just after 1 am. i was in no shape to do anything, let alone drive home, but i did. we stopped for pizza on granville (none for me, thanks) and i finally got into my car at about 1:30. i was not intoxicated but i was in no shape to drive home. i was ill, i had a headache, i was tired. but i wasn't going to suffer on KD's couch. if i was going to suffer, it would be in my own bed!
i managed to get myself home safely. as i walked in the door, i contemplated whether i should just make myself puke or whether i should just sleep it off. i chose the latter. i hate throwing up!
as usual, i woke up just fine this morning - tired, but not at all sick. i'm never drinking again, at least not hard liquor. a beer, maybe, but that's it.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
oh, yeah!
the Easter long weekend, my brother and mother and i went down to the states for a shopping weekend. at the nine west outlet, i found two pairs of shoes that i wanted...soooo badly. they were $60 each (pretty good for nine west) but they weren't really the type of shoes i wear (one was an evening-type shoe - peep-toe and a 3 1/2 inch heel in black satin - sexy! and the other was also 3 1/2 black satin espadrille, peep-toe - also very sexy!). my mom talked me out of both. i haven't been able to get them off my mind since.
so, on sunday, i hopped in my car and drove to the outlets in washington (burlington and tulalip) to buy my shoes. risky, because it was a month ago and it's an outlet store! it was meant to be because at mount vernon, i found the espadrilles, now on sale for $39.99. sweeeeet. i bought them. then, i drove another hour to the tulalip outlets (newer and way better stores) and found the other shoe on the clearance rack for $29.99. i bought them. the bad news? they're a size too big (9 1/2). the good news? nine west was having a buy one, get one 50% off so the second pair, i paid $15.00 for. instead of buying $120 worth of shoes a month ago, i bought them both for $45.00. come on!
so, i figured that if i couldn't make the ones that were too big fit, i could always give them away or really, they were only $15.00! i went on a hunt today to find heel grips and foot pad thingys. i installed them in the shoes and OMG, they fit! now, i just have to buy the things that go on the bottom so i don't slip and break my legs on those heels. holy F! i'm so wearing these shoes on friday night!
that's it. it's just about the shoes today.
so, on sunday, i hopped in my car and drove to the outlets in washington (burlington and tulalip) to buy my shoes. risky, because it was a month ago and it's an outlet store! it was meant to be because at mount vernon, i found the espadrilles, now on sale for $39.99. sweeeeet. i bought them. then, i drove another hour to the tulalip outlets (newer and way better stores) and found the other shoe on the clearance rack for $29.99. i bought them. the bad news? they're a size too big (9 1/2). the good news? nine west was having a buy one, get one 50% off so the second pair, i paid $15.00 for. instead of buying $120 worth of shoes a month ago, i bought them both for $45.00. come on!
so, i figured that if i couldn't make the ones that were too big fit, i could always give them away or really, they were only $15.00! i went on a hunt today to find heel grips and foot pad thingys. i installed them in the shoes and OMG, they fit! now, i just have to buy the things that go on the bottom so i don't slip and break my legs on those heels. holy F! i'm so wearing these shoes on friday night!
that's it. it's just about the shoes today.
Monday, May 07, 2007
under pressure
i feel compelled to write because my last entry was about reconnecting with MM. he conveniently forgot to call/email me last week about getting together for coffee and methinks he will forget again or be too busy to call/email this week too. and we all know why: he's scared. he's just started a relationship with someone new and then i come from out of the blue - ever the temptress, luring him once again to betray sacred trysts...er, trusts. he obviously doesn't trust himself around me and so he's avoiding the temptation all together. at least, that's what i like to think he's doing, anyway. he's probably just being a jerk :)
going to a spring social this friday called "devil's advocate". it's being put on by the VBA so a bunch of lawyers i know are going (including MGF and KD). i know A and Mon are going and i understand that the OC may come if BabyMan goes. i hope it's fun. it's supposed to be a social for lawyers and their in-the-business guests but who knows? anyway, it's at the art gallery so at least i'll be able to see the new exhibit and see MGF to boot. he's always very inclusive - i get the feeling that A and Mon will be very sticktogether but KD will be there too and she won't abandon me!
speaking of my OC, he and Shorty came out to Cardero's last thursday to watch the Nucks get spanked in OT and tank their series (perennial losers). it was me, A and Mon, A's friend and Mon's two guy friends (one very cute and shy - the one they were talking about setting me up with... but he wasn't interested at all. think about that night when i just wanted to say hi to that guy at the 'Fly and that's about how interested he was. Yeah.). anyway, the OC was very cute. managed to avoid talking directly with me, although he gave me a couple of Hi-5s (who does that?) and got a little pissy when Shorty booted him from his spot on the couch beside me so he could sit with me. i think Shorty's interested in me. i don't know how i feel about that. i won't bother getting into it because it's pure speculation (and i don't ever do that, right?).
i'm feeling very lazy this evening and i was contemplating not going to my aerobics class tonight - we are doing hip hop so i won't be missing much. but, i am a lazy slug so i need to get out and do something. besides, i had nachos and ice-cream for dinner, specifically because i knew i would be burning extra calories tonight. therefore, i must to go.
i am skipping out on a special, money-grabbing strata meeting tonight. i figure i don't really care if they pass all five resolutions. only one is a biggie at $550.00 and the rest are under $150. i know, they add up but i can't imagine every resolution will be passed. the owners here are too cheap (remember, they wouldn't even pass the resolution for security upgrades!). ownership is not what it's cracked up to be.
i have holidays coming up in two weeks! very excited. i wanted to do an all-inclusive - nay, i was going to do an all-inclusive (even by myself) but i realized that, because of my "condition", it wasn't a good week to go. i would have no fun. so, then i realized i had holidays in the first week of july but that's not a good time to go to tropical countries. so now, i'm trying to decide what to do. my may holidays, i figure i'll just do the tourist-in-my-own-town thing and see stuff that i haven't been to see in years (like the aquarium!). maybe go down to the states for a few days and shop or relax. i hope it's nice that week. then i can stay in town and frequent different beaches around the mainland, read books and then come home and sleep in my own bed. tres cheap! then maybe i can finally pay off my credit card and buy a new computer. i haven't been able to mess around with myPod playlists in months!
A bientot (i wish i had the french letters so i could spell these french words with the proper accents!)
going to a spring social this friday called "devil's advocate". it's being put on by the VBA so a bunch of lawyers i know are going (including MGF and KD). i know A and Mon are going and i understand that the OC may come if BabyMan goes. i hope it's fun. it's supposed to be a social for lawyers and their in-the-business guests but who knows? anyway, it's at the art gallery so at least i'll be able to see the new exhibit and see MGF to boot. he's always very inclusive - i get the feeling that A and Mon will be very sticktogether but KD will be there too and she won't abandon me!
speaking of my OC, he and Shorty came out to Cardero's last thursday to watch the Nucks get spanked in OT and tank their series (perennial losers). it was me, A and Mon, A's friend and Mon's two guy friends (one very cute and shy - the one they were talking about setting me up with... but he wasn't interested at all. think about that night when i just wanted to say hi to that guy at the 'Fly and that's about how interested he was. Yeah.). anyway, the OC was very cute. managed to avoid talking directly with me, although he gave me a couple of Hi-5s (who does that?) and got a little pissy when Shorty booted him from his spot on the couch beside me so he could sit with me. i think Shorty's interested in me. i don't know how i feel about that. i won't bother getting into it because it's pure speculation (and i don't ever do that, right?).
i'm feeling very lazy this evening and i was contemplating not going to my aerobics class tonight - we are doing hip hop so i won't be missing much. but, i am a lazy slug so i need to get out and do something. besides, i had nachos and ice-cream for dinner, specifically because i knew i would be burning extra calories tonight. therefore, i must to go.
i am skipping out on a special, money-grabbing strata meeting tonight. i figure i don't really care if they pass all five resolutions. only one is a biggie at $550.00 and the rest are under $150. i know, they add up but i can't imagine every resolution will be passed. the owners here are too cheap (remember, they wouldn't even pass the resolution for security upgrades!). ownership is not what it's cracked up to be.
i have holidays coming up in two weeks! very excited. i wanted to do an all-inclusive - nay, i was going to do an all-inclusive (even by myself) but i realized that, because of my "condition", it wasn't a good week to go. i would have no fun. so, then i realized i had holidays in the first week of july but that's not a good time to go to tropical countries. so now, i'm trying to decide what to do. my may holidays, i figure i'll just do the tourist-in-my-own-town thing and see stuff that i haven't been to see in years (like the aquarium!). maybe go down to the states for a few days and shop or relax. i hope it's nice that week. then i can stay in town and frequent different beaches around the mainland, read books and then come home and sleep in my own bed. tres cheap! then maybe i can finally pay off my credit card and buy a new computer. i haven't been able to mess around with myPod playlists in months!
A bientot (i wish i had the french letters so i could spell these french words with the proper accents!)
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