kalimera!

i just got back from Greece. isn't that awesome??? i did a 9-day tour (well, more like a 7-day tour), three days i athens and a four day island hopping cruise. i went to mykonos (loved it, am going to go back), kusadasi (in Turkey, saw Ephesus - awesome), patmos, rhodes, crete, and santorini (loved it, am going to go back). and me being as funny as i am, i didn't tell anyone where i was going, let alone that i was going on holidays. the people that needed to know, knew which was all i cared about. i told my OC that i was going on holidays the day before i left and he didn't even ask me where i was going. to his homeland! anyway... the cruise was ok. since my first and only cruise before this one was on carnival cruise lines, this small greek line paled in comparison. the rooms were tiny and so was the bathroom. the food was awful (the fried eggs at the buffet swam in olive oil. SWAM!). staff wasn't cute, except for one dining room waiter who actually propositioned me (i turned him down, in case you were keeping tabs). i took lots of pictures. i'm getting much better at picking shots - some of my pictures were actually quite good. and my friend who is an amateur photographer said so too!

since i got back, i've had an interview with the law society, graduated school and had lots of sleep. first, the law society - i figured since i hadn't heard from them in a month since i sent in my application that i wouldn't hear from them. wrong. they e-mailed me the thursday before i got home. i went for an interview on monday afternoon. sort of lucky the way it worked out, as i didn't go back to work until today. interview was ok - i knew the lawyer who interviewed me as he used to work for Crown and i knew him from when i worked at Supreme Court. he probably recognized my face but didn't know me by name. he's cute. and married. and would be my boss. by the description of the job alone, i know i want it. only problem is that i still like where i am. don't like some people i work with and i wish i was doing different work but i love the firm i'm at and i really like my boss. apparently, he was looking for me yesterday as he thought that when i was coming back. and, he called me into his office this morning, not to give me work but to ask me how my holidays were so we chatted for about 10 minutes about greece and holidays and that sort of thing. and he said twice that he was happy to have me back. what more could i ask for?

yesterday, i graduated from my stupid program. i got to walk across the stage one more time. not that exciting and only a third of our class showed up but it was good to see everyone nonetheless. food at the reception was good. they had fresh fruit and a tub of chocolate fondue. i didn't partake in the fondue but man, the fresh pineapple was good!

i don't know what to make of my OC anymore. we basically ignored each other all morning but then, he was at the printer at my desk and i was looking at something on my screen (i.e. not totally engrossed in something) and he said, "well, good morning! welcome back." and i was a bit surprised as he never says anything like that to me. he usually sings or hums as he waits for his pages to come out but never greets me in any way. he asked me how my holidays were and, as i had put out some turkish delight in the coffee room, he said, "so you were holidaying in turkey?" and i laughed and said, "actually no, i was in greece most of the time. i know, i bring back turkish delight from my holiday in greece." and he was mock offended and lectured me on how his people (i.e. the Greeks) were actually the first to make turkish delight but it's called something else. we chatted about where his people were from and then he asked me about where i went on my holidays. we probably would've kept talking for awhile but the boss came by with some work. one funny thing, though. after he said good morning and welcome back, i said, "thanks! so you did notice i was gone. some people didn't..." and he said, and i thought more seriously than mockingly, "oh yeah. i definitely noticed you were gone." maybe it had to do with the nearly empty candy dish. i can always dream. but i understand that he and the student are still going out for the occasional lunch. WTF. oh well.

so now that i'm back from holidays, the things that are now on my plate are my move at the end of june and my birthday in 21 days. yikes. if i were more inclined, i'd start clearing out my closet now but ...eh... not so much.

green-eyed monsters

i'm jealous of our law student on a number of levels.

first, she's beautiful. i can't tell what her background is by her surname but she looks ... i want to say armenian ... or maybe persian ... middle-eastern, anyway. she's got really nice eyes and that olive-toned skin. longish dark curly hair. average height.

second, she's young. i think she's just finished her first year of law school, which means she went right to it after university. so she's always known what she wanted to do with her life. ugh.

third, she's smart. everyone says how quickly she's caught on, despite the fact that she's never worked in an office before, oh she's so bright, blah blah blah.

fourth, she's nice.

fifth, she's working as our law student this summer. hence, i will not be taking on any researching projects for any lawyers. back to dictations i go.

sixth, and most importantly, she spent her first week last week at lunch with my Office Crush almost every day. if not by mutual invitation, then by coincidence. i was soooo peeved. and yet, i was more pissed off at myself that i was mad at her for catching his attention. is that her fault? is that mine? oy!

so, i decided to just forget about him - if that's the kind of woman he wants (young, smart, beautiful, nice), then let him have her. everyone i whined to said she's too young for him but i ask you: when has a woman in her early 20s ever been too young for any man?

the worst part is, had anyone been paying attention last week, they would've noticed i was in a rotten mood most of the week, i practically ignored her unless she happened to walk right at me and i didn't even ask how she was finding things (something i always ask new people). i practically ignored my OC. i know. in my mind, i think he may have noticed because towards the end of the week, he started to seek me out instead of the other way around. and today, he left a box of chocolates on my desk (that's usually my thing). i mean, let's face it, when he leaves chocolates on my desk, they're usually opened and one or two have been taken out. but the fact that he left it all made me laugh.

one other psycho observation on my part. i think she's copying me :) she's got curly, curly hair. last week, i wore my hair straight the entire week except for friday, when i went wavy and, i always wear my glasses. this morning, who had straight hair and had glasses on that she didn't wear all last week? the student. she started last week in pantsuits with her hair pulled back. by wednesday, she was wearing skirts and her hair down. i thought it was kind of funny. ok, that's enough about that. i'm over it now.

i need to stop obsessing over someone that doesn't care if i'm there or not! i need to find a challenge outside of this work crush. but less expensive and time consuming than law school. one day, i will find balance. :)

someone like you...but not you

i went out for coffee after work with my guy friend...basically the only guy friend i have left. we're coffee buddies. about once a month, we get in touch and spend an hour or so after work one night talking and catching up over a coffee, usually just at a coffee shop. then, we walk to the skytrain together, and chat on the way home - i change trains in new west and we say goodbye. he's since moved downtown so today, the purpose was to catch up and then see his new apartment.

background with my guy friend - we met online and basically had intentions to "date" casually but that got blown away when i met The Boy. for whatever reason, i chose The Boy over my friend. in any event, we decided to remain in touch and have become friends.

today, i met him at the lobby of his office building. he came down the elevator with a colleague, whom he introduced me to (he's a polite boy that way) and the we were off to his apartment. we can chatter non-stop when we get together. there's always something to talk about. checked out his apartment, snooped through his cupboards, walked in on him changing (hey, he left the door open and then said, "do you want to see her (meaning the girl he's dating) picture?" i assumed it was in the room he was in!), saw pictures of the girl he's "seeing" (now i know why he's seeing her...pinup girl), and then we started off for coffee. we ended up getting sushi to go and sat outside on the library steps for an impromptu picnic and people watched. then, we went inside the library and sat at one of the big windows and people watched some more, same view but inside. and we chattered non-stop. and not about superficial things. we talk about life and love and work and family, everything you could think of. then, he asked me if i wanted to grab a hot chocolate. i figured we were going to grab it to-go so he could walk me to the skytrain and not be cold. but we sat and talked some more. we were together for over three hours. it was like a date...a great date...one of the best ones i've been on in a long time; but it wasn't a date-date.

what i'm trying to say is -- why can't i find someone just like him, but not him? i really like him, don't get me wrong. we understand each other's sense of humour and i think we get along really well. he's attractive and smart and basically, a really nice guy, even though he claims to be a jerk. but at this point, even if he was still interested in dating me (which i don't think he is but then, i can't say that he isn't. i don't know. anyway.), i know way too much about his personal life now to really be comfortable with him as a partner. and perhaps vice-versa.

i'm always a little sad after i see him. whether it's because i enjoy myself so much that i hate to see it end or whether it's because i wish i could be with him (and i'm not sure that's it, exactly), i don't know. i'll be over it tomorrow, i'm sure. but for tonight, i'm a little blue.