moving on, moving up

today was my last day at the waterloo office. i felt really sad all day - almost like i didn't want to talk to anyone or see anyone because i knew it would probably be the last time ever. i know it's strange - i'm a little too sentimental for my own good sometimes. i've only known these people for three months and actually, most of them for a total of 9 days. yet they were all very sociable and inviting - at least once or twice this week i re-thought whether or not my decision to leave the company was a good one. i asked my boss to hold off on sending out the "she's leaving" e-mail until i was back in vancouver - i figured that half of them don't even know who the heck i am so why bother? some of the girls from the department took me out for lunch today, which was very nice of them. i also got another offer for lunch from one of the lawyers, which was very nice of him as well (i turned him down - first to ask, first to be accepted, i say!). then, we all sat outside and ate our free ice-cream from the Dickie Dee man (one of the perks in the summertime from the company). i plan on sending my usual farewell e-mail next friday but only to a select few.

i'm a bit nervous about starting my new job - it's all happened so suddenly, really. last week at this time, i had just accepted the position. now i have a week until i start my new job - i have to figure out whether or not i'm going to take the train into work (with gas prices at 129.5/L, i'm leaning towards yes), fill out all of those stupid forms, buy some clothes to actually wear to work... crazy things are happening in such a short period of time. perhaps, for someone like me who tends to over-think everything, this is a good thing. it doesn't give me a lot of time to question or doubt. i just have enough time to get myself organized.

it's currently 10:15 pm in waterloo and i am sitting in my hotel room with my hair in curlers but no makeup on. why? because one of the lawyers at work (THE lawyer at work) asked me if i wanted to go out with him and his friends tonight. i've barely seen him all week and today, i had basically given up and said to myself, "start getting over it now because it's never going to happen." and then, as i was leaving (one of the last of 3 to leave today), he was in his office on the phone but his door was open (for once). i stood there until he noticed me and then i waved goodbye. he quickly got off the phone and came to the door to say goodbye. it was weird. it was like because no one was around, he was more friendly and more willing to just stand and shoot the shit. he hugged me goodbye and then said, "hey, what are you doing tonight?" he sent me an e-mail about 20 minutes ago, saying that he had just left work (!!!) and that he was pretty sure that his plans were to play poker but he would see if he could change them so his friends would want to go out. i told him to let me know. perhaps it still isn't meant to be. but i live in hope :)