commitment

my fear of commitment gets stronger as i get older. i first started talking about it as a joke, almost to disuade people from talking about my singleness. but now i think i'm not really joking. the fact that i can't even commit to a 2 year cell phone contract with a company i've been with for over 12 years makes me laugh.

i'm getting anxious about welcoming a new dog into my little pack. the Lunatic is really starting to bond with me. she's playful, affectionate and sassy. i'm afraid that bringing a new dog into the mix is going to erase all of that progress. but my friends with two or more dogs assure me that this is the right thing to do.

doesn't make it any less scary. at least i have an escape clause.