busy much?

i've been to three singles events in four days. i'm tired.

but i did get inspired to write about them. i wish i had approached saturday's event as research rather than social, because i think i could've gotten a good story out of it. actually, friday's cooking event would have been better as a story. maybe i can salvage something.

i met a seer at saturday's event. he made a generalization of me based on my birthdate and he was pretty accurate. he said he gives readings but he doesn't charge because it's a gift. it sounds like he's the real deal. he's also a career coach, which i think is funny, and yet somehow apt. he told me i should be working in sales or client relations because he felt i really enjoyed the meeting people aspect of work. i don't know about sales, but i would like to work in a job where i managed files and clients. maybe he's on to something.

i also met a guy named Moe. i don't know.

mangia!

now that i'm down to an acceptable size, clothing-wise, i find myself eating huge meals, even though they don't really taste the way they should. i don't eat often, but when i do, i go big. well, just on the weekends.

i ate the last of my turkey from thanksgiving dinner last sunday. i made a turkey sandwich on sprouted grain bread and made some yam fries and had a chipotle mayo dip on the side. oh, so goooooood. i even treated myself to a 100 calorie 7up and now, i'm stuuuuuuuffed. fricken, eh.

i need to start exercising again. i always said that once i took the excess weight/size off, i would start into the regular exercising again. i have not done so. not yet. but i will. soon.

i'm so full, i can't really see straight. things are starting to get a little swimmy.

ah, i do love food.

civic duty

it was voting day today. i decided to take advantage of the beautiful evening and walk to the voting station, which was about 1.5 kms (uphill!). i joked to myself, "maybe i'll bump into my hot neighbour!" yes, with the hundreds of other people there and a 12 hour window from when the voting stations opened to the 7pm closing time, of course i would bump into him. of course!

as i walked up to the table where i would get my ballot, who did i see dropping off their ballot into the box? my hot neighbour. we made eye contact, and then he quickly looked away and left.

i have hope!!!

mind over matter

well, the ENT said she couldn't find anything wrong with me either, but she's sending me for a CT scan to see if everything is kosher with the sinus cavities and such.

i am really beginning to believe that it is my brain that is instigating all of this. let's face it - the brain is a very powerful instrument. maybe it finally snapped and said, "that's it - i'm tired of you waffling on losing the weight when you so obviously need to. i'm tweaking the taste buds until you can do it on your own." judging by the potato chips and chocolate i forced down for a mid-afternoon snack, i'm not getting it yet.

i think i'm going to pop down to IGA and see if they have any salad. it's at least a couple of hours until thanksgiving dinner and i've only had four pieces of toast and two eggs (and the aforementioned chips and chocolate) to eat today. i'm starving!!!

sentimental reasons

my sentimentality often keeps me from growing and advancing, both personally and professionally. i've known that for a long time, but it's never occurred to me how much it's affected me until now.

i've been looking at job postings again, but this time it's not because i'm unhappy or frustrated. i'm wondering what else is out there and what i could be doing instead of what i'm doing now. it's not that i think i've done it all in my current job - but i can see the future and it's a lot more of the same.

what's the problem? i like my lawyers. i like the setup we have, for the most part. i like the size of the firm and that everyone knows everyone else's name. they pay me well enough for the job i do. it's a great bunch of people to work with.

but i have that itch - what's yonder, over the rainbow? and you know me, i don't move backwards, so once i leave, i'm gone for good.

aaaaahhh!

snarly

i was feeling particularly snarly today. everything annoyed me. everyone bothered me. i hated every task i had to do today. i hated everyone i had to deal with today. then, Sam emailed me and asked me if i wanted to go for a walk so i said sure. i shared how i was feeling and she immediately said, "where are you in your cycle?" DING! i'm PMS'ing.

i should really start keeping a mood journal again, but it does make me wonder: when do you give up on what you have? i love my job but some of the people i have to deal with PISS ME OFF!!!!!

granted, one person is getting booted to a new job on monday and partly because of my whining. and let's face it, if A is still employed with us next year at this time, i'll be shocked. so once she's canned, my work life is back to good. maybe i shouldn't mess with it.

maybe i shouldn't.